"Couldn't I see myself now?" I asked. “Not until you are completely made up and I have put the wig on you," she answered. She explained that I only had five months growth of hair and that the scars from the operation were not covered completely. "Don't forget, this head was shaved too," she reminded me, "so we thought it best for you to wear a wig until your own hair grew out enough to cover the scars.”

"What about the scars?" I asked. "Will they always be visible?"

She assured me that they wouldn't. By this time she had applied a liquid to my whole face that felt cool and creamy. She called it founda- tion. Under this there had been a cover up cosmetic to make up for my skin being so pale. Rapidly she completed the makeup application, naming each item she used: shadow and liner for my eyes, mascara for lashes and brows, blusher for my cheeks and then the lipstick.

As she came toward me with this last item, a beautiful honey blonde wig, she said: "This is the crowning glory that will make you a beauti- ful girl. We must christen you with a new name as I put it on. What would you feel like answering to best?"

"I don't know, Julie." It never dawned on me that I would have to use a girl's name but I knew I must. It wouldn't do to call a girl Barry. "What do you suggest?"

She began to name some feminine names: “"Mary, Beth, Catherine, Deborah, Elaine, Frances, Grace, Helen, Iris, Jennifer, Karen, Laura, Marie, Barbara, Celia, Denise, Evelyn, Sharon, Regina, Vivian, Lynn. Does any of these sound acceptable?"

"I think Deborah Elaine sounds good enough. What do you think?”

"That's perfect for your looks, darling," she answered. Then she held the wig over my head and as she set it in place, she said: “I christen you 'Deborah Elaine Newbill.' With that she kissed me full on the mouth and said "That's for Barry Newbill, Deborah."

"Let's try a short walk, to see if you are strong enough."

I said O.K. and slipped off the bed into a pair of bedroom slippers. My strength was surprising. It was no problem for me to walk over to the full length mirror that was on the closet door. The problem was con-